What Now

 

What now? Probably one of the most thought of questions that lingers as the year progresses.  One month down and yet if we’re  honest with ourselves, somehow we’re still haunted by  the events of 2020. Yes it’s a new year, but  for some odd reason , it feels like just an extension of the previous year. As I try  to grasp a  sense of what will happen next, deep within, I am convinced  there is hope for the future.

Life is always full of “what ifs ”. What if the market crashes? What if the virus doesn’t go away ? What if I get laid off ? What if it’s the beginning of the end? We can drive ourselves insane by trying to figure out things or seeking  answers  beyond our control. But my question to you and me included, because I find myself sometimes stressing out like crazy, is how long are we going to be afraid? How long are we going to allow the unknown to rob us of our peace of mind? They say  when it costs  your peace it's an expense , but why on earth are we still making expensive transactions  just to be left sad  and broke? How long are we still going to hold on to the trauma of last year when we deeply know that holding on to the past is a slower process that steals the life of tomorrow’s adventure.

One month down to go and eleven more to go.  We’ve made it this far and for this very reason it’s proof that we still have something  special and unique to accomplish. Yes, it’s true that nobody knows what tomorrow holds  and as we all know life happens. Sometimes  we cannot do anything about it. But when life happens how are we planning to adjust. What changes are we willing to make for ourselves? Do we really believe we deserve better? Do we really believe we can do better for ourselves, before trying to do  things for people's approval,  when deep down they don't even care?

If I was asked to reflect on  2020 , beside its chaos, the words that remain with me are ‘what matters the most?’  In 2020 we went from a season of total lockdown to a partial opening and as of now we might go back to another lock down. But as everything seems to be out of control, what is our role and position in the “chaos”. What are we willing to do with this time remaining? We’ve all experienced a lot so far. Some have lost a loved one,  some have welcomed  a new family member. Some have dropped out of school, some have graduated virtually. Some have divorced, some have found love. Some have lost  a job, some have discovered  a new passion or  a hidden talent.

Many of us lost something during this challenging time, but I want to encourage  and help you to remember that not every death is a loss . Seeds need to die and decompose in order to grow and emerge into something great. The year 2020 may have buried us but we can still change, adapt and give birth to something spectacular. We all have purpose and as long we have that heavenly grace to see the sunlight, we’ve got the strength to overcome the challenge and fear of the unknown.

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